Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Don't EVEN ask how long it took to get this new template up. Let's just say it was a few days before I figured out that I have Classic Blogger, I didn't know there was such a thing.

I thought I needed a new look. I've had a lot of changes. I have a new job, the one I loved started to run out of money so they sold to a company in California. I miss the girls terribly, but I do like my new job a lot - the people are awesome and there's even some young boys to look at. (For those of you new to this blog, I mean strictly over 21). J moved out, after three years. He lost his job and we weren't sure if he would get unemployment, and I had been looking for a new job for about 2 months, so he moved down south with his family. I had been pretty miserable for awhile. I love him, and I miss him, but I had been praying for over a year that God would get me out of it somehow. We couldn't even have sex anymore because of the pain pills. WHAT THE HELL IS THE PRINCESS GOING TO DO WITHOUT SEX?! The funny thing is, I think he has Bipolar. Of course, he will never admit that, he's not crazy, not like me. I kept giving him chance after chance to make it better, I even got this new job making a ton more money, but he wouldn't, and then the second he got on the train he's texting me that he made a mistake. He is miserable there, but I was miserable with him here, so he has to stay. If it's meant to be, he will find a good psychiatrist I guess.

My 15 year high school reunion is coming up - I can't believe I'm that old. I was looking at the website for it and saw that a good friend had died in a car accident years ago and I didn't even know it. So I started looking up EVERYONE I knew on MySpace and Classmates.com, just to say hi, hoping they wouldn't die before I got a chance to say it. Morbid, I know, but I've had too much of death lately. Anyway, I found a friend from school who was also friends with my ex-husband. We kissed once before met my ex, but nothing ever became of it. The last time we saw him was at our wedding, he didn't even know we were divorced. So we made a date to meet and catch up, and he looked really good and he apparently was either really lonely or thought I looked good too. I will just say, holy shit, if I would have known he was that good I would have had some back in high school! Besides that, it was a really great date, we went out to dinner (he paid - OMG I haven't gone out in three years without paying), then we rented movies and picked up some snacks and we had a really good time. We talked a lot, he was a perfect gentleman. It even took him til 4am to kiss me. He works a lot on the weekends and I have the piglets during the week, so I won't see him a lot, but that's ok. It was so nice to have a friend to talk to. And I have all new alone time material! BP is back, ladies and gentlemen. I've may be a bit jaded from the heartbreak, but dammit, I'm not down yet!